had a debate session for socio just now.. the topic was: is work a curse.. the debate didnt really run like a debate.. bt whatever la.. clemaus says its a debate..
the qns i wanna pose now is.. : is life itself a curse?? c'mon ppl ans me.. or more likely c'mon nadirah ans me..i feel like shit today.. and i dunno why.. suddenly just over a split second i feel like shit.. and till now i still feel shitty.. graahs!
damn shit la! omg....
erghs.. whatever la.. tmr's gonna be another extremely loong day.. have been boarding the 5 plus bus hme these past few days sehhs.. and I CANT WAIT FOR THE THURS HOL! 1 day.. pathetic.. bt betta then ntg right!
theory.. ICA.. theory..viva voce.. ICA.. skills.. ICA.. *breathe breathe*
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8:57 PM <3
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i dunno isit just me.. or does almost everybody who sits for the ftp feels pretty dumb.. cuz we're not literally answering the qns.. rather picking what seems MOST right.. not even appropriate sometimes..
i must change my mindset and pick whats RIGHT frm now onwards.. i keep on getting wrong ans!! graaahs... 2 more days sehhs!
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9:23 PM <3
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you guys simply gtta catch awake! omg! hayden christensen! and the storyline is good! hahas.. and you guys wld nvr belive tt i actually turn away during the part where they saw open the sternum.. omg.. it send goosebumps dwn my whole body sehhs! and worse still where they stuff the tractor and began to stretch open the chest!!!O.M.G... and come to think of it.. OT posting nxt sem!!! grraaaahs!! all the best nadirah!
and was in the train just now when this china mother and child came and sit nxt to me.. no problem... then strt talking REAL loud like mak bapak dorang nyer train like tt..-ntg can be done cuz its a PUBLIC transport.. THEN! the god damn son strt to hit the mom's leg and the mom's leg keep on hitting my leg.. FUCK! btul nyer carik pasal!! dont tell me the mom fracture the spinal cord and thus got no control of her fucking own legs.. even if the child hit her leg.. she can still ensure her leg dont swing OUT of control rights! and if 1 or 2 time no problem la ehk.. im a damnit reasonable person... ni takde! the child hit her leg.. so she also DELIBERATELY let it swing and hit my leg... entertainment kape! babi! so i swing my leg and pretend it was out of control too and hit her leg hard plus the fucking irritating noise when you wanna tell ppl you're pissed.. plus an extremely non-toleratable stare at the son! and walaaa... im left in peace!.. BITCH!!
i know the girls wld kill me.. but i suddenly dun have the urge to jog nemore.. im getting LAZY!... blaahs...
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2:10 AM <3
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today's TUESDAY! hahahs.. and i told kimmi dear late yest night tt 'there wont be a tuesday blues' cause monday was very BLUE indeed...
but hey hey hey.. guess what.. i decided to leave the hse earlier today cuz for the 8am lab lesson there'll be some lecturer sitting in.. so therefore.. i took a bus earlier then usual.. and what do i get in return.. i was close to 1/2 an hour LATE!.. all thanks to the god damn traffic jam at bishan! it was raining heavily.. so who cares.. why must there be such huge and horrible jam! i was stuck there frm 7.20 all the way till close 8 before the bus is finally free to move its god damn arse.. and even so.. the traffic lights ALL have to turn red.. as per usual! and while i was super brisk walking to sch.. theres this 2 mat who was strolling to sch.. yeah... MAT WHO STROLL like GIRLS! bitch.. ohh btw.. they were.. ahh cpt cpt da lmbt... blaaahs.. and yeah azrin was right in front of those strolling mats...
whatever.. i strted the day horribly! but aft lab.. i went for BLOOD DONATION!!!! hahahas...n wanna see wanna see?!
super close up la! hahahs! and the needle look small rights! its like the biggest needle i ever see la! hahas..
walaa.. my venous blood! hahahas!
okok.. and CHERIE ma'am was THERE LA!!!! 1st time i see her there! and she say she's been dwn to nyp since forever! OMG!! ahahahas!! okok.. then.. the nurses there were soo omg.. i laughed soo much la! den everybody were looking at the 4 of us.. as in.. me. and the nurse attending to me.. and the nurse attending to seri and seri.. morning craziness cannot blame! hahahs!
ohhs.. and this yr's stress ball is a shape of a blood drop.. i haven took a pict of it.. LOL.. bt anws.. the nurse scare me saying my skin soft.. and thus more prone to bruising! -.-"! all cuz i ask her to poke my left arm instead of the right despite knowing my right vein is bigger! hahaHaHS!!!
okok.. i tink my clotting factor got problem! after 2 and a 1/2 hours under the pressure bandage.. the hole is still oozing blood la.. scarie.. 1st time like this!..
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7:34 PM <3
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i feel like a lazy BUM! on friday i was slacking arnd to the max.. enjoying movies etc etc etc..
on sat was over to jurong cuz iyun gtta sent the cousin off for his ns overseas training.. and i swear there haven been soo much drama since the one tt rahman create a huge hoohaa.. so yes.. nobody bargained for tt woman to come dwn and totally put behind professionalism and act like a mad woman instead.. and all the way till 2 plus am which is da time i reach hme.. i was still making noise to rahman over the phone! hahahs.. his fault also! hmrfs! and AS wasnt arnd i dunno to count tt lucky or unlucky.. bt i was seriously fuming mad with tt asshole sehhs!
and today having to slp only at 7 am.. woke up at 11.. settled some really pressing matters before i head back to slumber land! ahhahas!! -i'm a lazy bum rights! hahahas!!
i have a sudden urge to eat peach and fresh cherries (the purple ones)..
and.. urms.. graaaahhhss... i am missing you real bad la.. come back more often!! *thicken my skin ready* ahahs..
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6:16 PM <3
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TGIF!!! hahahs.. its already friday! hahahas!! soo fast.. wk1 is gone.. and by wk 4.. we'll be super stress for the ICAs and stuff.. bt hopefully.. insyallah everything is gonna be just fine! im bracing myself! i really am..
anw today is seriously an INCREDIBLE day.. i met sooo many ppl today! hahahs... i met AZRIN for a starter with no bumping into him for the whole 4 days of sch.. then i met.. ALIAH.. then i met and chatted with this girl whom have been in my lt all these while.. i ever see her somewhere.. but didnt realise she's in my LT till she pointed it out just now.. then then then.. i met IS! yes i met IS just now! hahahhas! and HAS as well! omg la! and of course not frgtting i met my all time dearest MAS! went over to mukmin to grab dinner.. and then.. the soccer ppl were dining there as well.. and of cuz not to frgt i met EDDIE there as well! hahaahs!!! see i told you i met ALOT of ppl today! hahahas!!!!
so basically my very 1st week in yr 3 more or less mention of all the coming scary shits.. and whole lot of breakouts tt might bring us through... and of cause the very SUPER AWKWARD moment when i cant even look at the face when im talking... i dunno how loong more can we all tolerate it.. or shld i say i tolerate it.. since i'm known to have very lil tolerence when you know i kinda pretty much HATE you! f im getting aggi.. graaaahs...
-breathe... breathe...-
so anws.. i tink im gonna make full use of my last sem as a student in SCH.. and also.. im definitely going to enjoy myself to the max cuzzz..... i dunno how much of fun can we get once clinical strts which has NO break before prcp strts... o.m.g. cans.. so yeah fun fun fun sem ahead! hahahs... -as if! lalalas~
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1:36 AM <3
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Wednesday, April 16, 2008
its the third day of year 3.. and i've been waking up at 5.30 on all the 3 days just in order to reach sch on time for my 8am lessons.. ok i shall not complain.. strting early is good! =))!.. anws.. year 3 has just begun.. and.. im pretty sure the stress lvl will gradually increase with time.. and so a reminder to me myself and i.. and along with all the fellow year 3 ppl.. BRACE YOURSELF!.. MYSELF...
anws.. im off to a very good strt.. these nxt few picts will determine why...
gloving plus the tango is not done yet.. thus explained the back tape still hunging arnd..
OPERATION IN PROGRESS!!!
Aseptic style of putting your hands ok! hahahs! soo weird rights!
last but not LEAST.. cus i still have THEM! =))!!
yeahhs... we are BACK! lalalalas~
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8:23 PM <3
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ok for a tiny lil glimpse of what nurses do.. -in case you guys still doubt tt nurses have their hands and legs tied down with workload... go visit dear lil kimmi's blog.. yeah.. she had kindly listed down some of the things tt we all do within tt 8 hour shift of ours..
and of course! today marks the end of attachment in 8A.. and so... pictures! i'll miss 8A BIG TIME.. im serious..
pm shifts! with barbara tang.. and sin rui's face is being hidden! AND in case you hadnt notice i was bending my knees ok! =P!!!
with SN YP=yan po! =))!"go find out yourself!" hahahas!
my fav! SM anisha=))!6 mths plus pregnant..
the ppl who always make my day in the ward.. =)
and theres 2 ppl missing in this pict!
and the last but not least pict is of course with the tong2.. whom is my -on-the-train-buddy!=)) its pretty weird.. but.. who cares! hahas..
and that's it! it doesnt sums up my whole attachment in 8A.. but who cares.. i made a card for the staffs and barbara.. and i tink jinat happily pin it up on the notice board in the ward la.. hahas..
okok.. nuff said.. i need a good loong slp now! hahahas!!
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11:00 PM <3
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you know wad.. it has seriously been a LOONG SUPER LOONG time since i smell the very comforting air of bedok neighbourhood! i went over to mas's place and slack there yest larrhs.. hahas!.. and then when we were bored and just nice her sis wanna go and meet the cousin.. and so.. we lepak at the void deck.. and the seat nxt to us were being conquered by some budak secondary schools larhhs! ahhahas.. small kidds.. LOL!! so anws.. while they tried huffing and puffing the ciggy's not even dreaming of the dangers those huffing and puffing can cost them.. haidar was doing the same thing! LOL.. anws.. we slack with music.. and card pakao!!!! LOL!!! whatever la.. i can barely open my eyes at 1 am tt by the time i reached hme which is at 3.. i was knocked out dead! LOL
anws.. today.. aftnn shift! was pleasant! =))! not much of cases esp with 3 pts in my room.. and i tink sn yp is in an ultra good mood that i dont mind at all tagging arnd her.. infact she taught me how to write proper report plus what to look out for etc etc.. i hope she'll still be arnd tmr! -if only she'd been this nice on the 1st day/wk of our attachment..LOL!!
and and our Ci bought pizzas for us.. and the staffs! and and and... she wrote on my guide book... how i need to be MORE proactive.. -she literally caps it ahs! and if tts not enough.. she end it with.. 'std counselled'.. FUCKER!.. tts it mans... she NOT only screwed up my that morning! she even DARED to write such shit in my book! blardy shit.. and we're gonna be STUCK with her tmr.. OMG! she's on aftnn on our fucking last day of attachment! this is such a bitch! i hate her not for who she is.. but what she do to me! LOL LOL LOL!!!
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11:23 PM <3
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the weekends wasnt like a weekend... it was soo packed! tt i can barely prioritise my activities la.. can you imagine.. im suppose to be at 5 different places all at 1 time.. and each and every venue requires me to stick arnd and stuffs.. but at the end of the day.. i attended 2.. leave abruptly at the other 2.. and totally omit 1 of them.. sigghs! i was suppose to be devastated.. i totally missed it out! graahs!
ok anws.. wkends are over.. and im looking forward to this weekends! why?! cuz it states the end of ATTACHMENTS! yay!!!
talking about attachments.. this morn was seriously horrible sia.. never in my 2 YEARS of attachment have i EVER feel like tt before... and whats more.. the ward WASNT even busy larhhs... compared to surgical wards etc.. i tink it's pretty nice.. and whats more sister irene wasnt even arnd... and STILL! it was horrible!
why? cuz the lecturer was there.. and happily accusing me and Sin Rui of not being observant nurses la.. will fail as a staff nurses la.. we never do anything despite having 2 students around in 1 room... what she doesnt know is tt.. we strt clearing the god damn room since before she step foot into the ward.. and she just happen to come spot checking on us during the dr's round.. and everything is everywhere.. and thus accused us of nonsensical shit! and her lecture was enough to spoil anybody's day sia! if that is not enough.. she even ask sin rui to apologise to this indian pt for not giving a good service.. cuz.. he's table consist of new set of PJ.. his Case notes plus his breakfast.. and to top it up.. she say.. he's an educated pt.. so we must be more observant in this area.. so isnt she in other words saying.. aiya.. if its just some ah mah or ah pek its ok.. bt it happen to be some educated geek its NOT ok?! BULL SHIT! and on top of it.. what she didnt know is tt.. i cleared PLUS wipe he's fuckin messy table clean with alcohol wipes... its clean enough to be used for a sterile dressing procedure la arse!
and to top it up 1 of my demented patient suck blood out of me.. i was already having a bad day.. and he came topping it up.. with whines and attitudes.. OMG.. give me a break la... hais...
and and and.. i NVR knew tt you CANNOT take h/c on a hand tt has a drip.. and i got scolded for it.. got scolded for NOT knowing THINGS tt nobody ever mention to me.. yeah.. tts soooo much for LEARNING in the hospital setting.. LEARNING! not getting SCOLDED...
this in a medical setting is seriously unbelievable la ehk.. surgical side.. cannot blame.. but medical lehhs... tsk..
anws! i finally finished my case study! and our CI dont even bother to look through it properly.. wahh.. THANK YOU mans.. claps claps claps larhs...
timetables out.. and if it cld ever get any suckier it'll be this! mon, tues, weds all strt at 8.. perfect..
i nd to get a proper real fun soon!
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7:38 PM <3
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guess what guess what guess what?!!!! arab is no longer on my agenda already!!! hahs! its abt time too.. i screw my last paper big time and right upon receiving it back i told hamzah i wish not to cont nemore.. and i bought shukulate for him! so thoughful of me rights.. i know i know! hahahs!!
ok ok..i didnt expect more then we'll miss you in lessons.. and the reasons on why i wanna quit.. and prolly at most trying to coax me back into staying.. and i tink im pretty stupid or caught off guard.. or as kh mention it..feeling guilty already for quitting... whatever it is.. i just got myself into trouble tt is sooo uncalled for! sigh! - great job nadirah! really..a job well done!
anws.. 5 more days in 8A.. and a case study on tues.. and if you have been under MDM Barbara Tang.. i tink you shld keep the comments to yourself cuz i tink im like facing the same pressure and stress tt you had faced! anws.. whats with all this SGH sisters coming over to ttsh as a CI.. hahahas! anws yeah.. im like being stressed over things tt i shld know.. tt even if i already know it.. it'll become an i dunno cuz it'll slip out of mind.. and it really sucks super major BIG TIME!cuz it'll make me feel as if im dump! yes it does ok!
sigh i must MUST work harder! i must aim higher for my results.. i MUST give all i have and can for the very last sem! jia you!!!!
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11:41 PM <3
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you know what?! no worries.. no pt of mine died anymore! hahas..
anws.. its finally morning shift! i was getting ohh soo bored of aftnoon shifts already laa... and tt meruku was there EARLYY in the morning to greet us.. -.-" how nicee... so yeah.. she act mane nyer besar.. that even my pt complain! hahs! boohoo to all your dump efforts! lalalalas~ and my DARLing went hme just now.. dint get to say goodbyes cause i was stuck in the physio rm with the rest.. so =(! my pts are all well.. besides the occasion spike in temp. and fluctuating bp.. ntg seems wrong with them.. and so i tink me and sin rui are pretty blessed.. hahas.. and i'm like always dissappearing frm my room to do other procedures in oth rms.. LOL! omg.. i tink i betta tie myself to my own room sehhs.. LOL..
i still have yet to finish up my case study by nxt tues.. any kind souls who is ohh soo willing to give a helping hand and brain to me.. pls do so before mon! thank you! hahahahs!!! im tired TireD TIRED!
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11:08 PM <3
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yest night.. my patient under MY CARE DIED.. YES my VERY 1st pt under my care died.. he came into my room in the middle of my shift and let out his last breathe abt an hour aft my shift ended.. i tink arnd 8 plus while me and sin rui were busy doing admission and settling the charts on top of one of the patient's extra noisy relativeSSSS.. -chinese ironically-.. anws.. yeah.. this pt's son ask for suction.. then.. aft tt the dynamap cant stop beeping due to low SpO2.. and the dr came by.. then ask for help.. his o2 was decreasing.. his son became frantic! O2 not peaking up.. 50% of O2 was increase to 60% and finally all the way up to 100%.. it was extra scary to see the SpO2 lvl dropping frm 89%.. 86.. 78... 74.. 72... for a moment i thought i was the one gg frantic!.. anws.. helped out the dr here and there.. and since the SN's arnd i took my leave la.. cuz the tong and the duck has taken my bag along with them..
and then today.. just as i thought my day cld not get any worse compared to yest.. i was soo ultra wrong la.. the moment i entered my room.. i was faced with 2 pt dwn with fever.. and another 1 bed bound while the other one is on super high risk for fall due to lower limb weaknesses... -.-"! and the 2 dwn with fever are extremely pampered! omg i cant take it cans! hahahas.. bt seriously la.. if you can move... pls DONT IMAGINE YOU CANT MOVE JUST BECAUSE YOU'RE IN A HOSPITAL... as loong as you can still move your limbs.. MOVE IT! cuz if you dont want there are thousands of ppl who wants it! -irritated larhss...
then today is the 2nd day 13 suck bld out frm me.. i waited roughly 30 mins for the bus lehhs! and yest jue told me the bus kena burn dwn.. today i told jue the bus was crawling... i wonder wads up tmr.. sigh sigh sigh..
and i tink i betta get back to my homework tt our CI has left us.. i tink she's much betta then the previous one! =)!
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11:46 PM <3
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walaa.. my venous blood! hahahas!
my fav! SM anisha=))!6 mths plus pregnant.. 
the ppl who always make my day in the ward.. =)
and theres 2 ppl missing in this pict!
and the last but not least pict is of course with the tong2.. whom is my -on-the-train-buddy!=)) its pretty weird.. but.. who cares! hahas..